[140/300] – time heals all wounds

Hola hola!

I did some reflection just last night while flipping though my going-to-expire passport, filled with chops. As I traced back the dates on the stamps, I started to think back on the people I had travelled with, the places we’ve been to, was it for a special occasion, etc etc. So much memories came pouring back! And I was kinda smiling in my heart and feeling pretty elated and at peace.

If I was doing this same thing just 1 or 2 years back, I wouldn’t have had such pleasant and sweet emotions. Instead I think I’d be feeling bitter and resentful, and will choose to just throw my passport aside, abruptly shut the door of my emotions and go to bed in a not-so-good mood.

Now I know, that I have really moved forward, my heart has moved on too. As I always say, I know I will eventually be grateful and thankful for all good and not-so-good experiences and events that I have to go through. I used to be just saying it, now I know I’m feeling it as well. The spiritual freedom I felt last night was just so light-hearted and weightless, that I’ve come to accept all that has passed with a positive and graceful attitude. Most importantly, I’ve come to accept myself and who I am today (this includes my past as well). This feels really good!

As I look back, my heart and my life shattered into pieces just as year 2012 started. When I thought I could depend on another important aspect in my life to rebuild myself, it crumbled into pieces just as year 2013 unfolded as well. I think I totally lost myself, lost my heart and lost my soul. From then till now, so many things have happened, so many events have passed, I’ve come to realize the people and things I hold most dearly to. These are the people who will always be with me, no matter what happens; to share my joy and celebrate my achievements during good times, and to support me and continue to have unwavering faith, confidence and trust in me during bad times. So blessed to have them in my life.

Almost half of this year has passed. Things have been going pretty well so far, and different parts of my life are starting to fall into pieces. I know some wounds have been healed, but I’m well aware that I’ve not fully recovered yet. So, I shall dedicate the remaining time of this year to complete my wound-healing process, as well as to recreate a more beautiful and loving heart and soul. There will be some scars on it, it may seem imperfect, but it will shine and radiate brightly because of these scars. Without these scars, there wouldn’t be substance and flavour to it. And life is all about savouring different spices and flavours, isn’t it? With a bigger heart and a more beautiful soul, I am totally looking forward to celebrating my birthday and ending this year with a bang in Aussie! Moving on into the new year, I guess I’ll be ready to open my heart to love again. 🙂

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♥ JY 🙂

[131/300] Ride the Waves, LEVERAGE.

Hola!

Went for my first ever wakeboarding session last Sunday! I’ve been looking forward to it, because it has been something I’ve always wanted to do, and also I want to feel the surge of thrill and excitement of trying something new for the first time! Haven’t managed to successfully stand yet, but will definitely want to make that happen in my next trip! And, I really enjoy being out at the sea. This trip revived my long-forgotten desire of wanting to become a beach babe! 😉 I’ll take more photos on my next trip!

Speaking of riding the waves, many a times in life, someone will just throw a bomb at you. I used to just catch the bomb and let it explode in my hands, complain whine cry when everything, including myself, is blown into pieces, take some time to recover and then think of the next step. A disturbing event just happened a few hours ago while I was trying to cook some pasta for myself FOR THE FIRST TIME (was looking forward to see if I’ve any hidden talent in cooking, but the event just spoilt my mood and appetite totally). Now that it has passed, I reflect back and realized I’ve been more steadfast and calm in settling this issue. And I will not just catch the bomb now, I will fly off together with the bomb as it explodes, and leverage on its huge wave of energy. This is what MD always meant by 借力打力. LEVERAGE. Leverage on the energy brought by external events because these are beyond our control, so we choose to control our reactions and emotions. Leverage on the power of the Universe because that is a much bigger and more macro environment we live in. Just like how I was trying to leverage on the waves to push me forward and stand up while wakeboarding. With leverage, we will be able to achieve much more with optimal effort. In Chinese, we call it 事半功倍 (achieve full results with only half the effort).

JY, brace yourself for a fruitful, productive and possibly life-changing week ahead! 加油加油!

♥ JY 🙂

[122/300] Positive Affirmation

Hola hola! It’s been a good start to the month thus far!

First of all, I went for my first ever spinning class on 2 June. Man, it was really tough! My limbs had difficulty supporting my weight as I tried to get my butt off the bike, so I ended up sitting on the saddle for most of the lesson. 2 days later on 4 June, I went for my 2nd spinning lesson, and I could lift my butt off the saddle for most of the lesson! Managed to keep up with the lesson, just that my own pace is way too relaxed compared to others. Self consolation: it’s ok, there is improvement from the previous spinning class! HAHA! And I earned not 1, but 2 “badges of honour”!

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Also, I’ve spotted my 3235 more than once per day! Loving the magic of Law of Attraction!

An important addition to my life during the past few days was a positive affirmation to myself. Whenever I did something which will put me in the right direction I want to head towards; be it flossing my teeth before sleep, moisturizing my legs, or waking up early for gym classes, no matter how small the action may seem, I will say to myself: FOR EVERY DISCIPLINED EFFORT, THERE IS A MULTIPLE REWARD. So you can imagine how frequently I repeat this to myself during spinning classes!

When sweat drips down my face, I feel good! When my legs feel numb, wobbly and jelly-like after spinning as if they don’t belong to my body anymore, I feel good! When I feel the aches on my butt and thigh when climbing stairs, I feel good!

Way to go JY! Can’t wait to see how gorgeous and sexy I can get as I keep burning fats and work out for the next half of the year! Sorry totally no humility or modesty here 😉

♥ JY 🙂

 

 

 

[118/300] 1st June 2014

Long time no see, I’m back again! My life is back into order and clarity again, all thanks to an interesting book I’ve picked up from the library. And with that book, I’ve made a life-defining decision. Deep inside my heart, I know this is the right decision to make and it only means better and more meaningful days ahead!

Some snippets of what I’ve been up to for the past few weeks:

Feeling grateful for my journey thus far, and feeling excited for the challenges and surprises ahead!

♥ JY 🙂